Don't Close Your Eyes

got my headphones on, not listening to you

First there are the ones who read it, listens to what is said and absorbs it, all of it. Then they draw an impression of her in their minds, and she stays like that to them for donkeys of years, just because they are simple enough to take it all in, every single piece of it.

Then there might be a portion of people who tries to look deeper, hear beyond whats presented and reads beyond the fine print. They try to understand, try to feel whats going on, trying to tune onto her frequency and get to know her.

and then there's her. thinking: "your point is? dont bother wasteing your time."

Basically, i rant and whine and rant and whine.
No, you dont have to put up with me

Can't help me.

yes, i am aware that you stalk me.
so i decided to make full use of your desire for me.
you love me, just like everyone else.
join the club.

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2AM.

you see, most people only see her grace. how many people have actually seen this?

You just dismissed me with one pathetic sentence.. i couldnt help but stare, just stare at you. WTF. just because im young? or just because i dont look that broken from where you see me? this just goes to prove how good i am getting in this. just because i dont say anything doesnt mean i have nothing to share, just because i dont cry doesnt mean im not falling apart inside. just because you havent heard anything about this 16 year old, doesnt mean there’s nothing worth mentioning about her. you dont know how far this girl has gone, to become the girl you think life has been good to all this time. nevermind, go. go wallow in this problem that seems to be crashing down on you, that seems to make your world turn upside down, inside out. i dont care, because i “can’t understand”, because you dont know how much i’d rather go through what you’re going through now, than go through what i did then.

no, i take that back. i wont change a thing. because what happened then had made me who i am today, and i am most most most grateful for that.

what im trying to tell you is that. contrary to what you believe, i do understand. i’ve been there, i’ve even to be somewhere much worse. so listen, listen to me. i want you to stand up, and do what you do. because its not worth it, you’ll realise its not going to be worth it in the end, just like how i did. because in this life, you and you alone have the say.

dont say i dont understand, because maybe, just maybe i do understand. maybe i do know how it feels like to wake up early in the morning with a broken heart, maybe i do know how it feels like when breathing becomes tiring.

stand up, i love you, girl. stand up, and hear me out. because believe me, i know.

bleah, eat you.

had something to say. lost it. frustrated. will just show you my side of the room (and how it usually looks like).

my comfort zone for the past year.

i promised i'll blog, and i will. just wait for me for a bit, yes?

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200TH POST. for you.

HELLO! this is my 200th post. yeah, i know, its been a long time. i read all my other posts the other day, and i realised how i missed this place. :D
had always wanted to post something special, since it's my 200th post, and im known for having no patience in "hobbies" so this 2 years and still going blogging thing is very much of an acheivement. :DD

so i decided, i'll post a personal prayer, for every single one of you, specially the Olevel candidates?
so here goes,

Dear Father God in Heaven,
Thank you, Lord, for watching over us for the past year. Thank You for every encounter, every emotion, every day, every single person in our lives. Lord, we come to an end of the year, for many of us, we're coming to an end of a very memorable lap of our lives. I pray that every single one of us have grown in Your grace, that You have seen us through every step we take, every decision we make. This is the last lap, may we get through this difficult time also, in Your grace, according to Your plan. I pray that You'll grant us the peace that surpass all understanding, the perseverance to not give up, the diligence to study for Your glory, and above it all, the knowledge that You are with us. Because if God is with us, who could be against us? You know the desires of our hearts, all the ambitions, all the dreams, and only you know how hard we've worked to come this far. Stay close, God, stay close.

Personally, i want to thank You for every single individual reading this. Thank you for blessing me with these angels, every single one of them. Everyday i spend time with these people, and i cant help but think how much You have blessed me with every single one of them. May You be with them, just like how You've been here with me.

Wholeheartedly, i pray in Jesus' name. Amen.

i'll definitely be updating after the Os. we're going to have so much fun. i promise. :DDD
oh, im going home on the 29th, just incase you're wondering. so yup, im going to be quite freee. :DDD
you'll know what to do. hahah.
lots of things to tell you all about. hahah, you all better hope that i'll bring my camera around when im out having the time of my life. then this blog wont actually be mundane and boring.

ok, i think you're sick of me now, reading so much of me. but before you leave, i'll show you something, just so you can "recharge" (mdm tee's going to be so impressed!)

i'll give you 5 cents if you can guess who this adoreable girl is. (yes, she's a girl. tsk!)

oh, i'll need you to pray for me okay? really do. dont want the feelings to come back, dont want to face this thing again. my faith is strong for a reason. :DDD

MUGG HARD, PEOPLE. GBU.

i looked at my inbox, and i laughed. Nianci, you're such a stupid girl. :D

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